It's Pasar Malam Day!!

Ive not been to a night market for the past few months and yet i still miss itso much!
Being a foodie certainly doesn't help. Its a pity that the fried ice cream stall closed down. Wats not to love bout that stuff? And i love 'taking' a mata kucing or 2 just to taste it to i can bug my mum to buy a kilo or two back on our way out.. =D

Ahh the smell of barbequed chicken wings.... and and all kinds of fried balls.... =P and pearl tea and penang laksa... everything there makes me go ga-ga la people... how am i to deal with myself when i go to Penang? Thats food haven in Malaysia...including East Malaysia... Im so screwed

Working up some saliva,

D

I'm dreamin of a Beagle....

What do you think of this picture?

Doggie cookie......

I cannot get over beagles!!! I first laid eyes on one in the movie 'The Mask'.

I don't really know much a puppy actually costs in m'sia, but once i'm financially stable, I'm so gonna get one... to be my companion.. my buddy..

I want to get a male one... And I know he's gonna be so adorable! I'd name him something meaningful... Names like Theodore, Chester, Titus... all seem too common to me... I need something that's significant to me... maybe something from the Bible.. Not too long and easy to pronounce..

Any suggestions?? I'd appreciate that!! =D

Right now I'm waiting for my dinner to arrive. Have you heard of Penang's fried chicken skin?

Who cares! All I'm thinking about now is how wonderful it would be if I bought a real cute car, took my beagle with me to an early dinner at a beach-side eatery , walk on the beach and watch the sun set together.......................... just me and my doggy..................

Okay folks, gotta run..

Off to dinner,

Doe

Nobody reads my blogs and that's normal.

Why would anyone want to read my blog?

No answer.

What I am more concerned about now is why isn't my headache going away... I am also VERY concerned bout the fact that I'm going to move to penang and live by myself with nobody I know over there..which is actually very intriguing.. >=D Actually there are some people but I have lost touch with them. The idea's more like to create a 'fresh new start' for me.. away from all the 'suckiness' around me. I'm looking forward in discovering the Zen factor. Wait, let me make a list of what I am So darned looking forward to very soon

1) Moving to Penang and working for PwC at Gurney!!

2) If I am not mistaken, Gurney's where all the night life is.... not gonna go wild but it's just nice to be able to experience the atmosphere itself.. the happy excited vibe..

3) Great Penang food!

4) Yoga / gym class after the great Penang food!

5) A new room. It wont be purple this time (my current Ipoh one is). It might be........ cream......

* Think 'ponies + pink rossettes + peach tea' vibe.

6) Balanced diet. Big breakfast everyday.... Yogurt with fresh fruits, oats, choc milkc =D

7) Use of olive oil in my home cooking.

8) Create a small business. I'm thinking hand-make cards. Still working on the ideas.

9) Making a whole new bunch of friends!!

10)THE BEACH!!!

There are other stuffs as well but... for now...these are it!!! I just wanna have a life. A new one.

To Thrive With Will & Gusto!

Welcome welcome welcome to you 2009, the year of the OX... my year! I'm plannin to own it XD

Lessons of 08 to be carried forward into 09:

1) Never be dependant on anyone for any material stuff, esp money! Yea, so go work at Subway for your extra pennies, mum's gonna appreciate that!

2) If you need to wear glasses, wear one. Stop makin excuses juz coz you think you'll look ugly in em. You need your eyes as long as you live.

3) DO stuff that has long term benefits, even if it means that it's gonna hurt at first. You'll reap the benefits in the end. Most definately. Be true to yourself.

4) Keep on dreaming like you're gonna go mad. Somehow it will get to you, coz when reality aint the way you want stuff to be, your vivid visuals & joy from your dreams will somehow motivate you big time to make changes for the better!

5) Discard unwanted stuff. Even friends. I did, and my life is lighter and clearer. nasty friends do you so much harm that sometimes you're going downhill and you just cant realise it. Don't wait for a big-bang-of-something-bad to happen before you switch your boat rides with your buddies from bozo-land. And stick with the ones who honestly know you really well. They care for you.

Personally, my line this year's to thrive with will and gusto.

Nothing will get in my way to the top, like Rihanna n T.I's song, 'Live Your Life'

You're gonna be a shining star
Fancy clothes, fancy cars
Then you'll see, you're gonna go far
Coz evryone knows, who you are

Got evrybody watchin wat I do
Come walk in my shoes
And see the way I'm livin if you really want to
Got my mind on my money, and I'm not goin nowhere
So keep on gettin your paper (keep on gettin your qualifications: degree, masters, pHD)
N keep on climbin
Look in the mirror n keep on shinin
Til the game ends, til the clock stops (til you heave your last breath)
We're gonna post up on the top spot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (We gonna hafta try our best til the very end!)
SO LIVE YO LIFE

PEACE!!!!!!

Hair spray!!

I juz got sum onto my hair. The lady did my hair in 20 mins. Okay maybe half an hour. Hope it stays that way till Saturday.

Some people in my life are like hairspray. They are icky, sticky, yucky and they come in at the last minute, but they sure do hold it together for me in the end. Talk about hard hold.

So I'm like walking in a place full of hair spray. So misty... I'm teary eyed coz it burns... Toxic... Waiting for th eplace to clear up.. Then I can see the road ahead. Transition point. make it or break it. Fight or flight. No, not flight. Sink or swim. I'll swim, even though I only attended my swimming lessons half way.

Growing up is so under defined that it kills me. Why can't they write a growing up manual? Coz nobody can ever do that. I have a dad whose names has a Maria in it, and you definately don't. And that makes us different already, and our dads don't give us the same advice. That's juz the tip of the ice berg.

Chocolate milk makes me happy. I juz had one. Yay yummy yay yay

Heavy heart vs Brave heart

I like the famous music score from the movie 'Braveheart'. It makes me cry..all the time..

Today's just like yesterday...not dandy.. I'm supposed to go look for my purple velvet stilettos to be worn for the convo. Gonna get on the bus tomorrow to go to uni to collect my robe and what not. I hope they've washed the robe nicely in case it smelt like old sour sweat.

I am still waiting for PWC to call me. Wait waiting waititi wait. I could sing a song while waiting. Patience really running out. When I'm gonna break down, I don't know. What I know it, I don't wanna work at UTAR. It sucks!!!! Who wants to be a stupid tutor so a bunch of kids? i wanna work in an international big giant jumbo firm. And stay and live nice n happy. I wanna mae myself happy so bad!! SO So bad!! But they won't let me.
I don't wanna cry coz they won't let me. Coz im a big girl. They should be letting me almost anything. Coz I'm a big girl, and I'm 23..... I wanna grow up.. I've made my own shit... let others clean it up for me...And now I'm tryin not to make more shit, and if i ever did, I want a chance to clean it up myself. I wanna be juz like Ne-yo's Miss Independant. Is that so hard to grant?

I am full...so full to the brim with anxiety and frustration. I try to control it. I try to smile. But i cannot try to be happy, coz it's a thing where you either are or not. No drama or no play acts in front of people. I cry so easily these days. Self-pity? Sometimes I really feel it's regret.

I'm still young. God's on my side. I know. I talk to Him now and then. I feel so insane, but I'm not. Wish I was. Good reason to escape somewhere. Okay. bye for now....

For those of you...

For those of you who struggle every day to smile, to be happy, do this simple exercise... Right now, close your eyes, empty your head, and notice your breathing. Feel it. The air going in, and coming out.. feel your lungs expanding..each bronchiole expanding with O2.. Your rib cage moving forward & upwards.. And how your blood feeds off the O2....

Now... i always ask myself of recent... why be stressed? Coz there's so many reasons to be, right? Wrong!!! We're relatively dust particles compared to the gazillions of galaxies out there in outter space... yet we still believe in God and have faith..Why should He care about a 'dust particle'? Coz we unique people... We are here to LIVE.... not to kill ourselves slowly with stress. Stress kills people faster than any terminal illness. i know it's easy to say.. But I have been reading Eckhart Tolle's A New Earth.. Changes in me? I do stress out but after that I come to my senses. I realise what a schmuck I've been, worryin like hell. I recommend you to read it, or even give it as a gift for your loved ones. IT IS FANTASTICO!

My convo's this Sat. I don't feel too excited. Juz a degree. I want my pHD!! Whoa horsie, not so fast... I tell myself. =) So here we are rushing and racing to gain riches. We all wanna be rich. Coz money changes things. But what money can't change, is thoughts, words, intentions, feelings and of course death. if it's coming at ya, it's coming to get ya!

We wait and wait for beter days to arrive. I always do that. Stupidest habit!! What is better than now? Coz we don't know if we will be living & kickin tomorrow braw'!
So? Plant a tree and recycle. Anyone wants an extra Xmas tree? I have an old one to give away...plastic by the way..... Cheers~