Where everything is interlinked..

I tell you, karma is something that I have been avoiding to believe in. Coz somewhere in my head I know it's true. Karma really works coz the Hindus thousands of years ago could not find any other explanation to why they felt like there was a come-back after every good or bad deed.
Nothing seems to be going right for me now. Karma strikes? Wallowing in my own self-pity is my pet peeve these days... not so much of nail biting coz i do that subconsciously. So, not counted.
Thinking about how many friends I have lost contact with makes my mind travel back in time. As I do that I realise that I haven't lost that many...I just never took the time to say hello. At my age everyone's working or finishing up their varsity years.. I'm not dreading to grow up, just not used to having so much of bad luck. What is luck anyways? I don't believe in that too. I'm just saying it here coz I don't know what else to blame those stuff on. O wait. Maybe it IS karma. I am proud to say that both my head and my heart has grown much stronger than before. In the sense that I do and say what I feel is right, and if someone doesn't like it, too bad for them (used to let stuff like that bug me previously). I have built this strong resistance for nagging and negative nonsenticals, and I am becoming more goal-oriented. Although this 'bad luck' seems to be trailing my every move and breath, I say it's okay. Totally fine. Coz no guts, no glory, right folks? Say and do as you may please.. I am proud to be me now. I can handle crisis like a wedding planner who found out that the wedding cake got eaten up by the pet pug. The show still has to go on right? So, Mr 'Bad Luck', just so you know, this year is My year, the year of the Ox, and I have every nerve to do my summersaults and walk with my nose in the air, coz you're off to Timbuktu soon, and I'll be walking on air!

I do not own myself....

Nobody owns themselves. Why? If we owned ourselves, we would not die. Who would like their owned-self to die? For we have a body, a conscious mind (altho half the time we do things in a routine that we don't think)
and an inner self, the spirit, or so we call it.

What's the hype about success and getting rich and risking our lives to die trying? Somewhere in the back of my head, I want to retreat to a temple in IndoChina, wear a piece of cloth, shave my head, and walk around saying prayers and reaching my hands out for alms of food and the occasional stuff. But, wouldn't that be selfish? i'm the first kid the the family, my family needs me. So what should I do? Build an orphanage?

Well, maybe I'll do that. If I am rich enough. What am I doing thinking bout these rubbish? For me now, success has overshot my prior concept of it. I want to be successful in controlling my anger. I want to be less moody and smile more. I fret growing older coz I think my skin's aging real quick, but I really REALLY wanna feel so good on the inside. I want to be more humble, sincere and honest. I will stop there.

Which is why, I am pulling myself back from so many people I know. As I read my dailay mantra in a book a.k.a A New Earth, I am starting to learn to be 'silent'...To just quiet down... and by doing so i get to feel the vibrations that people give me... Sadly I have realised that many friends that I claimed to have weren't really friends at all.. i try to not foster vengeance or any sort of negative feelings towards these people.. but it is tough indeed... But thank god there were a few that stood out from the crowd... A few that I owe my heart to. You fellas and fellis know who you are. I love you with all my heart people. Much Love Muchachaz!

I am trying not to live a life of regrets. And also to pick up after my own mess. Then when I'm soaring high enough, I will bow down and kiss earth to remind me of where I came from.


Getting out of the damsel in Distress outfit,

DoDo

It's Pasar Malam Day!!

Ive not been to a night market for the past few months and yet i still miss itso much!
Being a foodie certainly doesn't help. Its a pity that the fried ice cream stall closed down. Wats not to love bout that stuff? And i love 'taking' a mata kucing or 2 just to taste it to i can bug my mum to buy a kilo or two back on our way out.. =D

Ahh the smell of barbequed chicken wings.... and and all kinds of fried balls.... =P and pearl tea and penang laksa... everything there makes me go ga-ga la people... how am i to deal with myself when i go to Penang? Thats food haven in Malaysia...including East Malaysia... Im so screwed

Working up some saliva,

D

I'm dreamin of a Beagle....

What do you think of this picture?

Doggie cookie......

I cannot get over beagles!!! I first laid eyes on one in the movie 'The Mask'.

I don't really know much a puppy actually costs in m'sia, but once i'm financially stable, I'm so gonna get one... to be my companion.. my buddy..

I want to get a male one... And I know he's gonna be so adorable! I'd name him something meaningful... Names like Theodore, Chester, Titus... all seem too common to me... I need something that's significant to me... maybe something from the Bible.. Not too long and easy to pronounce..

Any suggestions?? I'd appreciate that!! =D

Right now I'm waiting for my dinner to arrive. Have you heard of Penang's fried chicken skin?

Who cares! All I'm thinking about now is how wonderful it would be if I bought a real cute car, took my beagle with me to an early dinner at a beach-side eatery , walk on the beach and watch the sun set together.......................... just me and my doggy..................

Okay folks, gotta run..

Off to dinner,

Doe

Nobody reads my blogs and that's normal.

Why would anyone want to read my blog?

No answer.

What I am more concerned about now is why isn't my headache going away... I am also VERY concerned bout the fact that I'm going to move to penang and live by myself with nobody I know over there..which is actually very intriguing.. >=D Actually there are some people but I have lost touch with them. The idea's more like to create a 'fresh new start' for me.. away from all the 'suckiness' around me. I'm looking forward in discovering the Zen factor. Wait, let me make a list of what I am So darned looking forward to very soon

1) Moving to Penang and working for PwC at Gurney!!

2) If I am not mistaken, Gurney's where all the night life is.... not gonna go wild but it's just nice to be able to experience the atmosphere itself.. the happy excited vibe..

3) Great Penang food!

4) Yoga / gym class after the great Penang food!

5) A new room. It wont be purple this time (my current Ipoh one is). It might be........ cream......

* Think 'ponies + pink rossettes + peach tea' vibe.

6) Balanced diet. Big breakfast everyday.... Yogurt with fresh fruits, oats, choc milkc =D

7) Use of olive oil in my home cooking.

8) Create a small business. I'm thinking hand-make cards. Still working on the ideas.

9) Making a whole new bunch of friends!!

10)THE BEACH!!!

There are other stuffs as well but... for now...these are it!!! I just wanna have a life. A new one.

To Thrive With Will & Gusto!

Welcome welcome welcome to you 2009, the year of the OX... my year! I'm plannin to own it XD

Lessons of 08 to be carried forward into 09:

1) Never be dependant on anyone for any material stuff, esp money! Yea, so go work at Subway for your extra pennies, mum's gonna appreciate that!

2) If you need to wear glasses, wear one. Stop makin excuses juz coz you think you'll look ugly in em. You need your eyes as long as you live.

3) DO stuff that has long term benefits, even if it means that it's gonna hurt at first. You'll reap the benefits in the end. Most definately. Be true to yourself.

4) Keep on dreaming like you're gonna go mad. Somehow it will get to you, coz when reality aint the way you want stuff to be, your vivid visuals & joy from your dreams will somehow motivate you big time to make changes for the better!

5) Discard unwanted stuff. Even friends. I did, and my life is lighter and clearer. nasty friends do you so much harm that sometimes you're going downhill and you just cant realise it. Don't wait for a big-bang-of-something-bad to happen before you switch your boat rides with your buddies from bozo-land. And stick with the ones who honestly know you really well. They care for you.

Personally, my line this year's to thrive with will and gusto.

Nothing will get in my way to the top, like Rihanna n T.I's song, 'Live Your Life'

You're gonna be a shining star
Fancy clothes, fancy cars
Then you'll see, you're gonna go far
Coz evryone knows, who you are

Got evrybody watchin wat I do
Come walk in my shoes
And see the way I'm livin if you really want to
Got my mind on my money, and I'm not goin nowhere
So keep on gettin your paper (keep on gettin your qualifications: degree, masters, pHD)
N keep on climbin
Look in the mirror n keep on shinin
Til the game ends, til the clock stops (til you heave your last breath)
We're gonna post up on the top spot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (We gonna hafta try our best til the very end!)
SO LIVE YO LIFE

PEACE!!!!!!